It's crazy how sometimes we take things for granted. This weekend I experienced something I never had before. Something I never wanted to. I knew it would happen one day.....but not like this. My oldest male cousin was killed in Montgomery Al. a week ago today. As I write this it still doesn't seem real. I just remember the last time I saw him and that conversation replays in my mind over and over. Never thought that would have been the last time. This is tough. To all of those who have experience such pain my heart goes out to you and yours. And to the ones who lost their lives in the struggle REST IN PEACE. Love always "Beam"
Why
One evening I was watching reruns on the screen
The 1st 48 is one of those interesting things
I tried to go to sleep but then my phone rings
My cousin is on the line saying the craziest things
He is dead he is dead
She repeats on the line
I hear her clearly but could she say it one more time
I don't wanna hear I don't wanna believe
I can't think I can't breathe
Because what I was just viewing is now real life to me
He died on the scene is what repeats in my mind
What was on his mind
As he took his last breath
I don't know what step is next
Saw him the other day
He smiled went on his way
Never thought that would be the last day
Would’ve said more than what I did say
He's not gone
My heart hurts this is wrong
If 2nd chances were given
He'd still be living
And I wouldn't be writing this poem
He'd be home
R.I.P. Kareem Troutman
MzP
