The Corner

Stranded on this corner alone
Left or right?
Not sure which way is home
Abandoned by love
Left with the trash
Heart broken into pieces like these shards of glass
Piercing my soul
Makin me cry
When I think of why I'm here
I wanna die
He said he loved me
He said you can trust me
And my young mind sucked it all in
Told me I should stick with him if I wanted to win
Now here I lose
My ego, pride, and vagina bruised
By some old triflin dudes
Stole my youth and ran off into the night
Truth is I gave it....so I'm wrong right?
I stand here starving
Needing something to eat
That hotdog in the trash could make a interesting treat
It's hard out here and I am beat
At 13 yrs old this is my life on the street

MzP

Mystery Man

**This was used for a Dreams challenge....wish me luck!!**


Am I seein what I think I see
Standin in front of me
Mystery man I've longed for you
I pinch myself to make sure its true
You smile at the gesture and I do too
Every time I close my eyes you're there
Whispering in my ear
Sweet nothings that I can barely hear
Making me smile
Making me cry
You disappear with dawn
And I wanna know why
As good as you are
As perfect as you seem
Mystery man are you a part of my dreams?
I laugh at the thought
My sides hurt from glee
Theres no doubt that I've touched you
And you have touched me
I still feel your presence
Your essence
It lingers
I remember your ring on my finger
Well it was last night
Mystery man, you're real right?

MzP

For Him

motionless
emotionless
can't think
can't move
can't explain how I'm feelin
to a special kind of dude
words wouldn't do it
pictures couldn't show it
BUT my love
he'll know it
cause I'll show it
not once in a while
but each and every day
He is the sun
and I am his rays
bound together by forces
the eyes can't see
so that when my baby thinks of love
He thinks of me

MzP

Time

If I could hold you
Mold you
I told you
That given the opportunity
I would & could be
Everything that you needed, See
Time talked to me
Whispered in my ear
Told me some things
I really needed to hear
Told me when I meet him
Greet him &
Hold on tight
That when it comes down to true love
You gotta fight
You gotta do what's right
And since time ain't forever
You gotta do it tonight.

MzP

IF

If I'm ever to love
I need to right now
If I'm ever to learn
I need you to show me how
If I'm ever to grow
Take my hand
If you love me like you like me
Be my man

MzP

Now

Come, let me touch ya hair now
Let me whisper in ya ear now
Tell you what u wanna hear now
That I'm here now
For real now
It's clear now
That what I lack
You bring now
My king now
Let me show u how
It could be right now

MzP

Sex Symbol

Just because I look a certain way
Are there things I should portray?
Certain things that I should say

Nah

You know I don't try to be
What you perceive
Of me
Which comes naturally

Of course

I don't deny
The fact I'm fly
You see it
Call it a lie

I am

What some strive for
Die for
Live for
Lie for

So

Does it matter?...Yes
About it do I stress?
No
If I had it to give
I would I could
Because that’s not
All I see
When I
Look at me

MzP

PEACE

Sometimes I just want to be
Left alone
Silence
No crying
It's quiet
Just me alone with
My thoughts
My faults
The ones I wish to erase
Stay on my case
Day after day
Sound after sound
On my busiest day
They still linger around
As my temperature rose
And my pressure increased
On my days off
All I need is some
PEACE

MzP

L.O.V.E. theres so many things I've got to tell you

I wanna be loved
Not part time
Not half way
But totally

Thats not alot to ask
Its not alot to grasp
It's just giving what it is deserved
What I've earned

Loyal
Unconditional
Not just words that end with L
Cause so does hell

And thats not where I want to be
What I want to see
Is you and me
Living blissfully

True love
It's hard to find
They say in time
If it's meant to be mines

I just want to smile for no reason
Believing
That the joy in my heart
You had a part

In making me see
All that I could be
All that I need
All that I bleed
Was always in me
L.O.V.E.

MzP

TRUST

I let another lead me
As if I was blind
Just not in my write mind
Listened to the foolishness
Took it as truth
Lost my youth
Now old and bitter
I'm upset
I can't forget
Worst part
I can't forgive
Forgot how to live
Because for so long
I didn't
I was smitten
I wasn't listening
To the truth my mind knew
Playing dumb isn't cute
But for 5 minutes I wanted to follow
Instead of lead
Now here I bleed
Knife in my back
I can't move
I lose

MzP

Just Words

The truth abt love is.......
That it hurts
Its hard to make it work
And sometimes as hard as you try
Love can be a lie
Make you cry
But still we try
Running our lives
A quest to complete
A life without love
I can't eat
Can't sleep
Can't retreat
Back to how it was
But I remember how it was
I long for how it was

MzP yall

Wishful Thinking

I miss your touch
It's only in my dreams
That I think about how much
It would be my luck
To want you
Now that you're gone
I wonder how long
Have I dreamed this dream
Of love
Your hugs
Your kiss
Is what I miss
Your smirk
When I say something shady
You say be a lady
I say don't be a baby
And this is how we lost
Our love was the cost
Didn't wanna be wrong
Now over and over I hear the same song
Replaying in my mind
Of a love I had time after time
If only I could stop the clock
And press rewind
You'd still be mines
I'd explain to you what I didn't
Let you know of my intentions
Prepare you for what's not written
The fact that I'm so smitten
By your smile
Your style
I'll go that extra mile
To be in your life
If only for a little while
Come back

MzP

That's That Bull

Disguise
While you sit there
Pretending to be
What you want me to see
When in reality
I'm not payin attention at all
In this big world
You're small
So small
I can't hear you
While you continue to speak
You fade away
I think you're gay
That's what they say
But it's ok
Lies as explanations
I don't need them
You can keep em
What I thought I knewI didn't know at all
I'm appalled
I gave all that I had
You don't know why I'm mad
I wanna fight
You know I would
Step down on ya level
Now that's that bull

MzP

Them There Eyes

It didn't take long
For me to realize
That the more I stare
Into your eyes
The deeper I fall
In themI see all
That I've dreamed
Let me tell you what I mean
Sunsets in the park holding hands
You & I on the beach with sand
Between our feet
It's hot but we don't
Feel the heat
Theres no music
But we move to a beat
Theres people around
But we just don't see
Them there
It's into each others eyes that we stare
And at that point
We don't have one single care
Cause it's about us
And I trust
That being with you
Is where I belong
I was wrong
To deny that whatI felt
Was real
And after all this time
Still?
Never could I betray
The vows that we both made
So hear me when I say
I'm going to love you forever and a day

MzP

Short Scribes

Just the thought of his lips touching mines
Is like whoa
I should say no
But the the thought of not kissing him
Is a no-go
Soft and juicy....Moist and wet
Thinkin about them is making me sweat
Lost in his kiss I could so totally get
If only he would let
Me

MzP

This can't be love
Cause it hurts
Too much like work
No praises
No raises
No words
It's for the birds
Like trash
You're to the curb
PEACE!!!

MzP

I can't believe I put myself out there
Stranded in the middle of no where
Didn't plan on going eyes open
Still not knowing
But what's done is done
It's only just begun
My feet they long to run
But my heart wants to be
Number 1

MzP

Mentally

I love the physical
But entice my mental
First
Because for what its worth
You might not
Get the chance to see
My ability
Or the agility
In which I can capture
The essence
Not only in presence
But through the wires
I can make you feel
With words
It can be real
Not touch
But luck
That such jar-gon
Would leave a hard-on
And it can
Let me show you
Let me blow you
Just like you like
The sensation was
So right
And it lasts
When we both know the physical
Can be fast
It was long
To measure the length is wrong
But we did
Put in a bid
Energy I didnt think you had
It's wrong to assume
So my bad
You put it on me
And I'm glad
Through words
I've never been had
If I had the option I would definitely come back
For more
You opened a door
Made me a whore
With words that stimulate
My mind
If you were my pimp
You could get my
Each and every dime
I'd wait in the rain
To ride your lyrical train
It's insane
I'm to blame
Say my name
As only you can say it
Better yet
Let your words portray it.....

MzP

Come Here

Penetration
Exploration
Exploitation
It's all apart of this quest
It's like a test
I suggest
We take it as far
As our bodies will allow
It's big but I can take it in
Somehow
Some way
And they say
That crime don't pay
My body's been ravaged
Like a savage
You came and took what
Was waitin
Anticipatin
Stimulation
That was bound to put
My fire at ease
Please
Put
It
Out!
I shout
No longer able to deny
Feels so good I wanna cry
It's no lie
That he did things to me
Mentally
Physically&
Emotionally
Inside of me was home
With each movement
I moaned
Didn't think it would feel so good
You lick your lips like you knew that it would
I misunderstood
Part 2 we could
We should

MzP

Dred

The things I've seen
The places I've been

I would tell you all about it
If I only had a pen

I no longer crave to speak
Lips forever sealed

The anguish in my eyes
Forever revealed

The journey of life
Is not over for me yet

60+ years
And this is all I get

So don't just look at me
Feel meI'm too old to front
My words can be blunt
If you've seen what I've seen
And lived as I do
You would stare into my eyes
And appreciate all the that I have to offer you
SILENCE

MzP

Not In Season

I've been smiling lately for no reason
It can't be love
Cause loves out of season
And what I mean by this
Is that I'm through
I don't have time
For love to leave me black and blue
Bandage me up and make me better
I turn my back on love
Even tho I'm a go getter
Love will break you down
Love can leave you dry
I'm tired of love
And these are the reasons why
So I may be smiling
I may be wiling
But the truth of the matter is
I talk about it
But do I really know what love is
Time after time
I contemplate
I imaginary debate
These thoughts about a matter
I know not of
This mystery called love
And it ain't fair
To assume that just because I've had a relationship
That I've been there
I'm dying to go and this I can't deny
That the reason why I'm bitter
Is because love has yet to say hi!

I see you tho :)

MzP

How Do I Breathe

Breathing is supposed to be easy as
1
2
3
But when he's outta my life
It's something I just can't see
Cause he makes me better
He keeps it wetter
Wetter than it's ever been
On a scale
This is man beyond a 10
And this he knows
With action he shows
Just how good it could be
But he's only in my life
A mere 2 out of 3
Days that is
Cause I'm not his
Part time love
Part time lust
How I would adore
A full time us
But it just can't be
You just can't see
Dedicating yourself to 1 lady
Not even if its me
So you tell me
How
Do
I breathe??

MzP

Situations

This is what I should say
When I hug you
But it’s hard to do
Cause I love you

You lie to me
So easily
So frequently
It’s apparent to me

That you can’t be real
You lie about how you feel
So tell me what is the deal?
Damn just keep it real

You still continue to play me
For she
Frontin like I wouldn’t see
That your total attention wasn’t on me

When in reality I knew
You couldn’t be true
But the way I loved you
If only you knew

With my emotions you played
On my senses you prayed
Still I stayed and stayed
To only be betrayed

No longer about us 2 but 3
And I thought we would have a family
But you couldn’t be true to me
Not even for the sake of he

So as I get the courage to say what I didn’t
Hoping that you listen
Remember what you’re missing
And these lips that you won’t be kissing

Cause I’m done
You were the one
My moon and my sun
I was there for the long run
Just be here for your son

MzP

Choosey Luva

Torn between two
Nah I’m torn between three
Each one of them wants me
But being with one I just can’t see
Should I choose
Him, him or him
Nah that just can’t be
Is it my fault
That I got caught
All up in the game
It’s not insane
It’s the same
But you don’t get it
Can’t get wit it
It’s either all or nothing
So goodbye
But it’s a lie
You leave me
You can try
As do I
For the courage to choose
Fuck what I lose
Make a decision to decide
Turn my back on my pride
Sounds simple andI tried
To say I loved it
Would be a GOTdam lie
So I won’t
Put me in a corner
Don’t
So for nowI’ll date as I pls
Even if it’s with three
It’s OK for him
But not for me
Cause I am she
You would say that
Boy please

MzP

Circles

I wish the light would change
And this a.c. would work
Wish I wasn't riding in the car
With this silly little jerk

Touching my dials
and humming some songs
I wanna slap his head
But that would be wrong

Pretending not to hear me
I know he does
And to think he does this
Just because

His fault my fault
I laugh he thinks he's right
I ride silent
Cause I don't wanna fight

In circles I'm going
Not only physically but mentally
It's killing me
I pull over reach for the brake
Grab his hand by mistake
Eye to Eye
We are lost
Not only physically but emotionally
I love him and he loves me

I sit back with a sigh
As I silently wipe my eye
How much longer can we try
How much longer do we deny

MzP

co.Katman.2007

WO-man

Why can't a woman be
What a man is
When part of her
Is what made he

But in no way
He remembers that
He is superior
And that is fact

He says "Raise my kids
Wash my clothes
Cook my food
And I'll have control"

Do as I say
Not as I do
Watch your mouth
And I'll be good to you

Take your money
Lie
And Leave
You don't believe

In reverse
You get what you give
You cry
Not I

Same difference
I say yes
You say no
I'm a hoe

Treat me like shit
It's Okay
I strike back
I must be having a bad day

In reverse
The game is the same
Sometimes you lose
Sometimese you win
Sometimes you get the chance
To try it all again

MzP

co.katman.2007

Denial

Right turn
Left signal
I’m in the wrong lane
Playing the same games
That had me confused
Used
And abused
Trusting the wrong dude
Has made a fool
Cause not once
But twice
I believed him
He was nice.
Told me things
Bought me rings
Beautiful rocks
Full of bling
I had to learn
It wasn’t easy
Please believe me
I tried
I cried
Took my spirit
Stole my pride
I died

Ocean Breeze

I feel it on my skin
Blowing through my hair
It takes me there

I raise my arms high
In my skirt theres a twirl
Not 1 care in the world

I kick the sand with my feet
I sway to the beat
I'm not bothered by the heat

I relax and sip lemonade
I'm outta the sun I'm in the shade
The gentle wind it turns my page

Oooh I shiver
Where's my cover?
Where's my lover?

Not spoken of but he's here
I feel a tickle behind my ear
As he whispers "I'm not going NO where!"

He smiles licks his lips and proceeds
To give me exactly what he thinks I need
Without a care in the world or a warning to heed
We made love in the ocean breeze

MzP

co.katman.2007

The Words In Between

He came to me
Wasn’t sure what he needed
But he succeeded
In getting me to drop my guard
It wasn’t hard
It was worth it
His words were perfect
Almost too per- but I’m not lyin
This man was tryin
His mission clear as day
He wants it he has to pay
Not money but attention
Not to mention
That this game he spittin
Has been written
Line for line
We could go
I already know
So does he
Mind to mind
He is me
It wasn’t in the physical we connected
It was the words we respected
Didn’t imagine..it just happened
It was real
Still

MzP

co.katman.2007

Mirror

I can be seen BUT NOT HEARD
I'm moving my lips BUT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE WORDS
You stop and stare YET YOU CAN'T COMPREHEND
So I stop and start over ONLY TO FAIL AGAIN
Should I give up TRYING
Live a lie AND
Be what you want me TO BE
I take a glance in the mirror AND DON'T SEE ME
Hand to my mouth SHE DOES THE SAME
Who is this woman? WHAT IS THIS GAME?
Steal my life TAKE MY NAME
Runaway with all my FORTUNE AND FAME
I look away cause the CRUELNESS IS UNREAL
This impostor can't possibly KNOW HOW I FEEL
Yet she looks the part AND PLAYS THE ROLE
She has stolen my identity BUT NOT MY SOUL
I remember this and smile CAUSE IT'S A FACT
I glance in the mirror and I KNOW THE FACE THAT LOOKS BACK

There can only be 1 me.

Mz P

co.katman.2007

~Dreams~

Even in my dreams Im writing
Its exciting
Inviting
Taking my mind to a place my body has never been
I long for sleep so I can go there again
I dont even have a pen but the feelings so great
Why cant I have these feelings when I am awakeI debate
All I have to do is close my eyes
In my dreams there are no lies
I could prolly win the Nobel Prize
If I triedWhy is it that when I wake up I forget
Is it not meant to stick
Seems like I got myself into some REAL shit
Those lines that were so right
With a flow that was so tight
Recite em I just might
Are totally lost within the moonlight
Damn.

Mz P

co.katman.2007

The Meaning

This morning I watched the sun rise
From dark to light
It was as if a match had been lit
I was excited I couldn't sit
It looked to me as if Heaven and Hell had split
Darkness turning into the father I never knew
Daylight saving me from the things the darkness wanted me to do
In my mind the color of the sky represent a special meaning
On faith I'm leaning
But the thing is see
Everytime I watch daylight fade
Thinking about the mess that I've made
If Heaven and Hell is true
I feel like I know Hell better than I wanted to
Now all I need is for Heaven to hold no surprise
Represent no lies
I say a prayer as I close my eyes
That I'd take this Hell on earth and you know why
Just for 1 more chance to watch the sun rise

Mz P

co.katman.2007

Almost Lost

I remember waking up reaching over you were there
Thinking how dumb I was to even be scared
You love me is what you said
Right before we went to bed
But it's this dream I had you see
In the dream you were not with me
I searched high and I searched low
Where you went I just don't know
The pain in my heart I just couldn't bear
Knowing that the man I love just up and disappeared
When I thought we were good
Shit I knew we were great
A love like ours doesn't dissipate
So I grab you tight and hold you close
Thinking damn this is what I would've missed the most

Mz P

co.katman.2007

All Night Long

I told him what I needed
And he succeeded
We flipped we flopped
I ended up on top
I rode long I rode hard
The feeling I had I could touch the stars
He slithered he withered
Back and forth
Fell off the bed and onto the floor
He dipped low He dipped high
A single tear escaped my eye

I wish he knew my plans cause my mission is so clear
I rub his leg gently as I whisper in his ear
I'm gonna give it to you...but I want you to take it
His eyes bugged out I knew he wouldn't fake it
He never seen this side of me I was aggressive
It was impressive
If I do say so myself
I was loose I been sippin top shelf
When he knocked I answered nude
I'm no fool
And boy he drooled
But baby this is only the interlude
Next stop erotic city
Hold tight it won't be pretty
The faces made
The games we played
I can't believe its been 2 years
Since I've been laid
And boy did I miss
The way he kissed
Each and every portion
My love was the ocean
And in it he almost drowned
When he hit that spot boy did my love come down
But he is my rider
And my provider
At 5am he was still going strong
My baby put it on me ALL NIGHT LONG

ILLusions

Let me tell you distance wishin is the worst
It’s like a curse
Seein something so perfect
Is it worth it
Touched hands on the train
I remember
It was December
The coldest day of winter
Then you entered
Smelling of sensual cologne
I smiled out a moan
Damn this stranger
Is turning me on
That’s when it happened
It was static
It was magic
It was over
But still I think about it
I rub my hand on the spot
Train brakes and comes to a stop
Last stop conductor yells
No one moves I can’t tell
But in my nose there is a smell
Mr. sweet and sensual cologne
Is on the train but he’s not alone

Wishful Thinking

MzP

co.Katman.2007

Last Night

I did things I've never done before

Secret crevices I let my tongue explore

Never thought I was a freak before

Until now

But how

Could I just change overnight

Could've been the way he held my body tight

The way he hit it from behind just right

Shit

Thinking about it has me tingling

I feel your touch your fingers lingering

All over my body you got me singing

Hitting high notes I never thought I could

I think I should stop but it feels so good

You are taking me places and it feels so right

Doing things I would never do before last night

MzP

copyright.katman.2007

One Mic

I step to the mic
Shittin bricks
Feelin sick
Contemplating
Turning around
Leaving town
Getting down
Cause truth is
I knew it
I couldn’t do it
I feel stupid
Thinkin I could be different
Ended up bein the same
Losin the game
Seachin for fame
On this journey of truth
I was lost
Paths of wisdom and love crossed
Sometimes I think
Do I go left instead of right
Give up or do I fight
Show em up just for spite
They said I couldn’t do it
But I knew it
Negative energy stay away
I got something to say

MzP

co.Katman.2007